Do You Still Remember

Long time readers of this blog (and especially of my old blog) will likely remember Rainbow, who was my first girl in the lifestyle. The 8th of this month would have marked the two year anniversary of the first time we spoke to each other. Unfortunately, after events of last year, we weren't on speaking terms.

On the 9th, after much thought, I took the initiative to send her an email to see how she was doing. It was the first time we had spoken in over half a year. One thing led to another, and we've found ourselves texting each other every day. I'm glad that I decided to say hello to her again... it's good to have someone in my life who can make me smile and lighten up my day.

And she still turns me on as much as she ever did...

I don't know what's going to happen between us this time, if we will have a relationship or even see each other. I have my hopes, but I also have my fears. Only time will tell how things will end up. But I'm glad to have her a part of my life again. I missed her.

Speaking Of Drinking

Orson Welles is a much more entertaining drunk person than I am.

I've Been Drinking Tonight.

I'm drunk and watching Rango. It's hilarious. My ex is sleeping in my tv room closet while I lay on my king size bed. Isn't that weird? It was her choice to sleep in there, we moved a queen size bed in there and it fits. It's a big closet.

I am not going to make that mistake everybody makes when they're drunk though. You know the one. I am exercising drunken self-control. Which kind of defeats the purpose, but whatever I'm still enjoying it. I dunno where I'm going with this, I started this post a lot of alcohol ago. Anyway life is precious and I'm going to be happy even if sometimes it seems like I'm never going to get there. I don't give up easy. I was depressed and struggling for my first 25 years and I overcame that all on my own. I don't give up.

I should respond to comments in this post because I want you guys to keep commenting. So Andi, thank you for the luck wishes, and I would be more than happy to take you to the zoo I'd you're ever up this way, it is an awesome zoo and totally worth visiting. And SFP, you are probably right. Breathing room is likely to be good for both of us. We did things really quick and maybe that contributed to where our relationship ended up. What's done is done though... there won't be any salvaging. Things have really changed in the last month and a half... it clearly wasn't meant to be. However that came to be , it's reality. But maybe we'll end up good friends. Time will tell.

Now, if you'll excuse me, Rango is wearing a dress. Silly lizard, will you ever learn?

Zoo n Stuff

So yesterday I went to the zoo with A. It's true, we are following the famous, break up, go on a date plan. lol. I actually asked her out to lunch, then set my GPS coordinates for the zoo as a surprise. She was surprised alright. After nearly six months, she didn't think I had that sort of trickery in me. Little did she know!

It's funny, we are getting along drastically better since the split. I think maybe it has something to do with having different expectations for each other now, if I had to guess. We had a wonderful time at the zoo. Pretty much every animal you can imagine, they had. It was her first trip to the local zoo in years and only my second in a long time. It was pretty easy to enjoy myself just watching her enjoy herself. Goooooats and feffalunts and rhinusoceroses. Maybe I'll throw some pics up once I get them off my phone. After that, it was on to the local ice cream place, then back home. It really was an awesome day. We seem to make for excellent friends.

Then today was back to work for the first time in some time. What can be said about that? It's work. I put in a 10-hour day and at least got a little financial reward for my hard work, which doesn't always happen. And I have more 10-hour days staring me in the face as I try to get caught up. That's the way it is though. At least there's a certain satisfaction in a good old fashioned 10-hour day. Of course, ask me if I feel the same the next time I grind a whole day with a loss to show for it. Fun fun.

Ex Sex

As I slid into her from behind, reaching forward with my hand to press her face into the pillow, I couldn't help but think... "single life's not so bad after all."

We stayed in that position until my leg started shaking (I had one leg up and one down, for angle considerations), then she finished me with her hand. It was one of the best orgasms I've had with her in a while.

Of course, she had already gotten hers. I threw her on the bed and pinned her down, fucking her hard with a dildo as I swirled my fingers around on her clit. She came with limbs flailing, biting her lip to keep the screams of pleasure from coming loose. Her nails dug into my arm. The other hand squeezed the bedsheets tight. It's hard to cum sometimes when you have roommates.

So yeah. It was a good night.

And someone asked me a question!

Little monkey wonders,

"Hhmmm.... questions, questions... sexy questions,hmmm.... wank, left-handed? right-handed? switch off?"

I'm naturally right-handed, and for a long time it was the right all the time. Through adolescence, up through my early 20s. But somewhere in there I started mixing in the left. I'm not sure if it was because it left my dominant hand free to more accurately move the mouse (lol) or what exactly, but over a period of time I switched from exclusively righty to mostly lefty. Weird, huh?

I still mix in the right from time to time, especially when I need something extra for that final push, but right now I would say it's about 75% left, 25% right. It perplexes me when I think about it, because I can't do anything else with any degree of competence left-handed. Can't write my name, can't throw a ball, can't do anything. But I can wax the wonder weasel like a pro. Figure that one out.

Oh, and if I'm using a toy, I get ready with the left, then hold the toy in the right. It's hard to maneuver a fleshlight with a lube-covered hand. This, like all the truest lessons, I have learned from experience.

Adjustments

I've decided I'm going to start blogging about random stuff from my life, not just the sex (whatever of that there will be). Especially since I now have a phone that lets me mobile-blog from anywhere!

So be prepared for an assault of randomness, and if anybody wants to take me off their "sexy blog" list I totally understand. There will be a bit of sexy stuff mixed in. Reports if anything happens involving me. Links to interesting blogs or porn. I found some pretty spectacular amateur BDSM/self-humiliation type porn recently that maybe I'll let you guys in on in a post or two. But also more general life stuff.

This could almost become like a tumblr. So why don't I just put it on tumblr? Meh, I'm comfortable here.

Anyway I'll update you guys when something comes up. Right now I'm sitting in my tv room playing NCAA Football on XBox trying to figure out what to do with my day. I don't want to work because I've been hemorrhaging money at an alarming rate and I'm kind of taking a psychological reset period before I decide to go on the attack again. I've seen all the movies that are out right now that I'm interested in. I was thinking about going to the zoo but I don't have anybody to go with and it's less fun alone. I'll probably end up reading and video gaming all day.

I guess if anybody ever wondered anything about the former Beast turned King, maybe this is the time to ask? Any questions at all. I promise to answer honestly, unless you ask my address or account numbers or passwords or that sort of thing. But you guys are cool, you wouldn't do that.

So yeah. Ask me interesting things for my entertainment!

Also I fiddled around with the blog template. Nothing drastic, just subtle adjustments. Happy to take thoughts on the new look.

Coming To An End

Sunday night, A and I broke up. It had been coming for a while. Our time together was good, but we weren't going to work for the long term. She couldn't be the submissive I needed - which is not a reflection of anything bad about her, it's just who she is. Unlike the last one, I'm not really sad about this one. We went as far as we could and then made the right decision for both of us.

So I'm single again. Kind of feels weird. I've been truly single for maybe just a couple months in the last two years, and not for nearly half a year now.

What comes next? Not sure. I'll probably focus on my career for the next month or two. I don't expect to pass up any opportunities if they present themselves, if I end up meeting someone for play or more, but work will probably be my top priority. Work more hours, make a little extra money. And when the time is right start looking again, for the same thing I've always been looking for.